So this year I haven’t really thought about my birthday at all, which is weird for me. Every year I always anticipated the day months and months in advance. Last year I booked our Vegas trip for my birthday more than 6 months ahead of time. That was before my birthday was sad.

My mom just called. Reminding me why it was sad and reminding me why I had chosen to forget my bday this year…

Anywho, we’re going to shut down the office that day, not for my birthday, but for the other reason. The same reason we came home early from Vegas.

The whole company will be going out to lunch and then we’ll be going bowling to remember him and just be together as a company, he would have liked that. It’ll be a sad day, but a fun day too. It’ll be nice to have a day to remember, cause so many days all I try and do is not remember. Cause if I don’t remember I can pretend he’s just out hunting and will be back at work in a few days or week or two. And if I keep not remembering I can avoid these tears that are falling right now.

Remembering hurts. But if we don’t remember that’s worse. No one can forget him. We never will…