This week I've really been hating my job. I'm not totally sure why. I think part of it is because sometimes I feel so useless. I get my work done but I never exceed expectations. I just plod along doing my 8 to 5 and just enough to get by. I'm jealous of Nathan and his passion for work. His desire to innovate and do better. I don't know how to achieve that though. It's seems like its almost something that's built into your system from the day you were born and my system is missing it…

I've slipped into this funky depression of hating my work life. It's starting the affect my home life. I haven't cleaned the house in forever and laundry is piling up… I need to get out of this funk! I need to find my passion in life and pursue it but- I have no f-ing idea what it is.

The only time I truly enjoy myself is on the weekends or when traveling when all thought of work is far off. I wish I could just not have to work. Lately I've been kind of wanting to go back to school, but the problem is I'm not sure what I want to go for. I know if I did decide to go back Nathan would support my decision 150% and he would help do whatever it takes to make it work, which really encourages me to go back, but like I said, I'm still not sure what I want to be when I grow up…

Wow, sometimes I just hate life. I don't know what's up with this funk lately… Maybe I'll figure it out soon. Hopefully…

~Amy